My uncle died.  He’s my Godfather.  I’m still thinking about it and processing it so….I’ll write a little on him another time.

And…..on Thanksgiving weekend…I went to visit with my Grandparents and my Aunt – as well as Uncle Jimmy – the best man at my dad’s wedding.

They’re all buried in the same cemetary…..and, on the day after Thanksgiving…..I went to visit them.

Michael – my grandpa, Ellen – my grandma, and Mary – my Godmother and my dearest relative outside of my immediate family.  And….everyone knew it.

My grandparents emigrated from Ireland to the US and my Grandma did lots of things including working in people’s homes and cooking and cleaning for them, but what she did that was most important was to be my grandpa’s wife…my mom, aunt’s and uncle’s mommy….and….be my Grandma.

My grandpa drove a bus in New York City and my Aunt worked in NYC in Insurance and, my Uncle….he’s buried in Arlington National Cemetary down here in this area – he served our country in 2 wars and after that worked on airlines as an Air Marshall and as a Corrections Officer.

The arrow points to the small christmas tree i brought for the visit.

And – funny story alert – I have visited before and gotten lost walking around aimlessly and, this time, I had an exact location to go visit….but…..you know what…..I STILL GOT LOST!  And, when i finally got to their headstone…..I Laughed…..I think we all did.     It was good to laugh.

Now – Jimmy here below.  He’s buried with his mom and dad and his sister.  His Dad died when he was 8 and his mom died when he was in his 20s.  So…..THAT’S ROUGH!!!!!   Sadly, Jimmy died when he was about 53 – complications from Diabetes…..He’d lost part of his leg and his eyesight during his bout but, i have to tell you.  He was wonderful.  Love him.  He was such a good friend for my dad to have during this lifetime.  Everyone should have a Jimmy Farrell as their best friend and best man.

And, the arrow points to some flowers I dropped off during my visit.  And, funny thing….. I did NOT get lost getting to his site.

So…..I ask you this if you read this far.

Why do I feel the need to come to their gravesites to visit?  Is it because I haven’t let go of the fact that they’re not here anymore in the physical sense?  Do I need to get past that?

Ommmm.  Yeh – I think I do.

But, to my credit here…..I wanted to spend some time there for me.  And….that was that…..

What you dont know about me is that…..once you get just past “the-funny-guy”…..there’s a person who cares deeply about others and is very sensitive while using a sense of humor to be disarming to others and to keep the same others at bay a little bit until I decide if I want them to know me more.

And – lastly – I stopped by some friend’s home I’ve made as a result of doing the radio show. 

Check this out – he let me hold his EMMY AWARD!  YES – It IS an EMMY for music written and recorded for the soundtrack of Farmboy.  And, a foto of the sky at the cemetary and the Throgs Neck Bridge.  Good Times!  Forever captured in these fotos.  Not to mention that crazy mustache thing I had going on until this morning.